14- Unsuccessful Examiner

For a long time, there was me, and my body. I was composed of stories, of cravings, of strivings, of desires of the future. I was trying not to become an outcome of my unpleasant past, but the separation that had already occurred between me and my life was a pretty significant outcome. I was always trying to become something, somebody knowing that I only existed in the trying.  

This year will be the last year of my high school life. In this particular milestone of my life, I experienced many circumstances; hindrances which sometimes made me hesitate to continue my journey to the future. Picking a good university for college is a dilemma for us. I, as a graduating student always prioritize what college university I should enter. I’ve always dreamt of entering   the best universities her in the Philippines. One of my choices is the University of the Philippines.  The chances of passing in this  University is small, but I do not keep words such as “impossible” in my dictionary. With this in my mind, I bravely took this college entrance exam.

Now, the small chances of passing this exam have already faded as the results came out. It hurts that I didn’t pass. I know it is very difficult to predict the outcome of these examinations but still chances and expectations constantly run in my veins. I mostly feared academic examinations, because they often bring predictable and unpredictable results. Sometimes it brings out the best, but most of the time failure. The worst things happen, and as a student, failing this exam devastates me the most.

I know that expecting too much can lead to so much disappointment. One way I did to cope with this examination failure is to talk to people. I regularly talk to my family and friends, discussing the options that I must take for my future. There are still times when this thought of not passing the entrance examination suddenly pops into my mind and that I must give-up my dreams.

            

Failing is sad but beginning a new chapter of your life is great. I vowed this to myself; If I can imagine it, I can achieve it and If I can dream it, I will become it.